This is the time, for the operation to take place, to
remove the cancer, from my colon. Am I scared? I think that is going to be the
problem, because the closer that it gets to the time, of the operation, the
more scared that I become. I don’t think that this is a very Christian like
attitude to have. I will assume that I supposed to be filled with faith, until
it starts bubbling out my nose. Should I go down the hall, into the operating
room quoting scriptures? Maybe I should just fight back my tears, and don’t speak
at all so no one can really tell how much that I am hurting.
I have come to the point in my life, where the chances of
it ending are closer than, it ever has been. I guess that this is showing that
I have real humanity, because I don’t want to die. I remember four years ago, I
tried to commit suicide, with an overdose of pills. There has been a drastic
change since four years ago. I have really connected with the true giver of
life, and I have no desire to enter into Heaven right now.
It is really strange, because I always thought that a
Christian’s greatest desire was to enter, into the realm of Heaven. I don’t see
it that way. Heaven will be there when it is time for me to go, and it might be
that time. Heaven has never been the ultimate goal for me. Maybe it is not
because, I have really had much in my life, and there is something that I much
more desire right now, than all those riches and luxury’s.
I realize that Heaven is going to be much more, than I
ever hope to have, of anything in my life. Just to be honest with you, I am
enjoying my relationship with the Triune God right now. I have no family that
cares anything about me, and I know it is my fault. All that I really have in
my life is the Triune God, and those that are in my daily life. Do I want more
time to repair, the relationships, which I have destroyed? Not really, because
I might even make it worse than it is right now.
Do you know what that it is,
that I really want to do with the time, that is left in my life? This is my
heart’s desire, and it is all that I want to do, with the time that is left, in
my life. Maybe I need to back up here for a minute, because my life expectancy
has been undetermined. I might fall dead while writing this, or I could see the
rapture of the Church. I live one day at a time under the grace that, the Lord
gives me. I have no special promises!!
I believe that there is a reason that, the Lord is
showing me just how fast that, this world is collapsing. I know that the Word
of God tells us what will happen, and most of the events are happening right
now. The problem is that most people, even Christians can’t see the events as
they take place, and put them together. I have run into an entirely different
group, of Christians here lately. I always knew that they existed, but in fewer
numbers.
I have been in a couple conversations within the last
week, with a couple different people. We were having what I like to call deep
power talks about the Lord. The kind of things that the average child of God
cannot enter into, because of lack of knowledge. I am not going into great
detail with the outcome. I just want you to see my point.
The first one we were talking Spiritual warfare, and had
been for a few minutes. I really can’t remember how this subject came up,
because I was floored with his reaction. This seemingly knowledgeable man about
the Word of God made this statement: We must be careful to pick and choose the
scripture, and how we believe it, because there is a lot in the Bible that is
not true.
I know that I didn’t handle this right, because I quickly
excused myself, without even a reply. I wasn’t sure what to say without
offending this man, for I know an offensive action is never an attracting. I have read some fairly ludicrous things in
the Bible, but I simply accept them as truth. If they are not true I don’t
believe that I will be held as a fool, because I whip out a five gallon bucket
filled with faith, and paint it as true!! Actually most of the biggest miracles,
in the Word of God are a stretch, on my understanding. I am not even going into the other one,
because there is a lot in this example.
Hosea 4:6 My people are
destroyed for lack of knowledge: because thou hast rejected knowledge, I will
also reject thee, that thou shalt be no priest to me: seeing thou hast
forgotten the law of thy God, I will also forget thy children.
If you will read this verse carefully it is one of the
main reasons that I write this blog.
Do you think that our Lord wants His children to be knowledgeable? Do you want your children, to be the most
stupid ones, on the planet? Godley wisdom
and knowledge is what this verse is talking about. If we will look around at
the events that are going on, in our country, there is no Godly knowledge being
shown. The only way that I can put this altogether is the fact that there is no
relationship with God, and no relationship means that there is no Word.
My hope with writing this blog is not to Save arena’s
full of people. I don’t have nowhere that many readers, and I really don’t
care. My goal is to bring, one person at a time, a few wouldn’t go unappreciated,
and the people, of this world needs, a relationship with God. A solid
relationship with the God will change your life, in ways that you could not
possible believe.
This is my mission in this life. I can’t speak, because I
have a terribly unbelievable case of stage fright. I love my Southern Accent,
but few people understand it when I get on a roll. I can read the Word. I can
listen to Holy Spirit, while He explains the wisdom contained to me. The
greatest thing that I have gotten from Jesus is a heart filled with love that
flows over to you, so I write because I am concerned about you, and the
relationship that you have with God!!
Ain’t God Good?
….Much
Love
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