Sometimes
it is harder to act right than others. I am getting pretty good at
holding my tongue, and not embarrassing myself. That's what happens
when I don't hold my tongue, and start running off at my mouth. There
really is not a bad bone in my body, and I am more than less faking a
move when I lose control. I do remember back in the day when I really
didn't care how angry a person got at me. Then again, I was such a
jerk!!
I
had much rather live a peaceable life. It is better on my whole body
if I do. Conflicts make my body go nuts. My blood pressure goes way
to high, and I get an anxiety rush that is not good. If I get angry,
or scared I get to shaking and can't speak well. It's kinda like
trying to understand daffy duck, or the teacher from the peanuts
school. I believe that is a gift from the stroke hat I had back in
89.
A
lot of things resulted from that stroke that I still practice today.
I know that this will sound crazy, but having those strokes were
really a blessing in disguise. Yeah,....I had two six months apart.
I was so wild, and crazy that God had to get my attention somehow. I
recon that He let the devil have his way for a while. I was smoking
crack cocaine. I need to say this for anybody thinking about starting
smoking crack. Please don't do it, because even if nothing happens to
you body like it did me.
Crack
cocaine does the worst thing out of all the drugs that I ever done.
It goes straight to your soul to start. It will rip apart your soul,
and make you become something that even you will not care for. It
will make you very self-centered, and it want mean a thing to you to
betray your friends and family. One day you will look in the mirror,
and have a hard time recognizing who you are. All the time hating
every fiber of your being for what you have become.
I
guess the time that it takes is different for everybody. The outcome
is pretty much the same. Those that can afford the stuff usually die
from an overdose, or a busted heart. Those that can't usually lose
everything that they own, and everything that others will allow them
to have. Before the time that you are finally finished, and looking
for a working solution to your problem. You will have damaged if not
destroyed every relationship that you have built over your entire
life.
It
is strange how everybody is just going to take a hit, and see what it
is like. Nobody plans to be addicted to the stuff. We all say that we
are in control, but we are not in control. Satan is in control, and
he wants to kill you. I can't stress this enough: Crack Cocaine
destroys a persons soul!! It is the only drug, out of all the drugs
that I have done in my life, that targets a persons soul first.
Most
drugs will eventually get to nawing a bit at the soul. Crack cocaine
goes straight to the soul with the first hit that is taken. It
creates so much damage it like it is biting, and chewing on the soul,
and spitting small chunks up into your throat. Do you realize what
that kind of attack does to your remaining part of the body?
Your
conscious is seared. Do your realized what it means for something to
be seared. Webster dictionary 1828 says, SE'ARED,
pp. [from sear.]
Burnt
on the furface; cauterized; hardened.
That
is fairly strong language. That is still what is happening when you
some crack. There is even a stronger word that the Bible uses it is
called reprobate. This is what Webster said about it.
Abandoned
in sin; lost to virtue or grace.
That
is really not good. Now lest look at what God said about it. In the
book of Romans chapter 1:28-29,
And even as
they did not like to retain God in their knowledge, God gave them
over to a reprobate mind, to do those things which are not
convenient;
If
you are a smoker of the crack this verse applies to you just as it
did me one time. It is the punishment we received from keeping God in
our knowledge. This is a real dangerous place to be. It is worse than
being 80 stories in the air trying to walk a tight rope drunk with
the wind blowing. We are talking about the destruction of a persons
soul. Falling from the tight rope simply kills your body. When the
soul actually dies, it does so in an eternity of hell!! Please don't
smoke crack.
…........Much
love
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