I have to share his with
you, because it makes me a better person. I told you that having cancer has
been great for me personally. There are several things, which have changed with
my attitude. I have no fear of death, other than just not wanting to go yet. I
would rather die, than live in, a lot of pain, and now I am seeing the other
side, of medicating pain. I have been taking pain medication for my back, for
the last four years. The medication has doubled, and I have added another
anxiety medication, on the list.
I have come a long way,
through the course of addiction, and it is not the same thing now. I am taking,
what the Doctor say’s that I should be taking, and no more. I have this Spirit
living inside of me, and He is leading me in the direction that I should be
going. I am pretty sure, that in another month, my operation will be completed,
and then it will be time, for my chemotherapy to begin.
I am telling you, the
reader these things, because I can’t live inside a secret shell. I am a
Christian, and I want to continue to be a Christian. I love living the life of
a Christian, and writing this blog is my ministry to the Lord. I tell all the
things, which I have grown from, and how the Lord has blessed me. I share my
life with you to hopefully show you how to avoid the mistakes that I have
made. My main objective is to show you
how great a God we love and worship, and how much He loves us.
Being considered a
Christian is the most honorable thing that I have ever done. Have you ever really considered the price
that Jesus paid, so the entire world could have the privilege, to be a part of
the family?
I was speaking about the
difference in attitudes of myself. Nobody likes to point out the faults that we
have, on the inside of us. Especially the grosser ones, I have been delivered
from some of the pitiful sins known to man. I am grateful that I haven’t been
guilty, of all of the sins, and what I have has been enough. In the book of Isaiah,
the author describes the best of us, upside the Lord.
Isaiah 64:6 But we are all as an unclean thing,
and all our righteousnesses are as filthy rags; and we all do fade as a
leaf; and our iniquities, like the wind, have taken us away.
I believe that the change
will take place, in us in Heaven, and we will no longer be, in that kind of a
mess. I
cannot possibly phantom, this kind of a difference, in my life. I know that I am
a mess of a person, but I really try to change my style, to please the Lord. I fail
completely time after time.
I know that Satan is
trying his best to take me out of this world, because of the cancer. I am
leaning harder on Jesus, and turning an opportunity for failure, into an opportunity
for success, in the way I see things. Now the drugs that I am taking for pain
and anxiety are messing with my memory, and making me nod out, and robbing me
of my focus. I will not be defeated, and if I can’t continue with my ministry, I
will take some time off rather than make my Lord look less than perfect,
because of lameness!!
I had a hit and run
driver, who nipped my rear-end of my bicycle today. He slowed down at the red
light, and turned right, and nipped my brand new rear wheel. I starting yelling
and he just kept on going. It didn’t knock me over, but he should have stopped
the car. I need to get more serious about my prayer life, because I know that
Satan has his sights set on me!! I am convinced that nothing less than Spiritual
Warfare is needed to save my physical life, because I know that my Soul rests
with Jesus!!
I never figured that I would
be much of a target for Satan. I guess the things that I write, that expose his
madness, and trickery, that keeps the un-saved, from coming to the Saving
knowledge, and grace of Jesus Christ is having a Spiritual effect on him. All that
I can say is good, and it is time to shake off the dust, and pour out the ammo,
which is the Word of God.
The last three weeks, I have
been praying the prayer, of putting on, the whole Armor of God. When there is
something that I suggest that, you do to gain knowledge and strength, in your
Christian life, I also do it. I realize that we are in a battle, and it is
going to end, and quickly. Before it will end it is going to get a lot worse. Watch
you television news. Is it getting
worse? Can you see the Spiritual
warfare taking place nightly? Satan
knows that his time is up, and he must pout the heat way up on high!! He knows that he can’t win the war, because
he knows that he has already lost, and he knows that his home will be, in the
eternal pit of fire!!
Those of us that have been
Saved, by the grace, of Jesus Christ, need to show our love and appreciation to
Jesus. We need to tell our Brothers, and Sisters, that the Devil is a lie, and
the Father of all lies!! Sometimes we get comfortable in knowing that, we are
going to Heaven and all else can go to hell. Jesus died on the cross, for
everybody to escape the flames of hell, and we owe it to Jesus to tell those
that are lost about Him.
John 14:6 Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the
Father, but by me.
John 3:16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his
only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have
everlasting life.
Ain’t Jesus Awesome?
…..Much Love
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