I hope all of you
had a happy Thanksgiving!! It's the time of year that we all should
be thankful for our many blessings that we have received throughout
the year. It is usually celebrated with a massive feast shared with
those that we love the most!!
Sometimes we share
our day with those who are not as fortunate as ourselves. We go to
shelters, and help feed those whom do not have as much as others.
Some people invite the less fortunate inside their home to share in
their feast. There are all kinds of different things that people do
to help out. There is also a crowed that does nothing, or no more
than they want to be doing.
I am ashamed of
myself for what I did at this Thanksgiving time. I ran off and
hid!! Even though, I know that I have been called to serve. I
simply just whimpered away with an attitude. I thought that I had
done enough all the year long. I thought, “ What about me?”
That was as selfish as I could be!!
Everything had
already been lined up for me. I was staying at the mission where they
make a big deal of serving a huge Thanksgiving meal. All I had to do
was put on some decent clothes, and a smile on my face, and walk down
the steps with a different attitude. You know,..........An attitude
of gratitude!!
I know what has
caused that disastrous problem!! I've not been attending church on a
regular basis like I need to be attending. I have this condition
called fear of people. The only way that I know how to get a handle
on it is to attend church services at least twice a week. When my
love tank is not filled regularly it runs dry. The funny thing is
when it's filled to capacity, and not allowed to flow out it gets
stagnant. It's meant to have a consistent flow from me to others.
When it doesn't flow that way, then I’m in trouble. I resort to my
default mode, and that's never a good thing!!
Well I fell on my
knees before the Lord and repented for such foolishness that I had
done. Everything is alright now, and I can take back what I had
missed.................We never can!!
The best
event I have not missed yet!! For Christmas my church is going into
some of the worst neighborhoods in Jacksonville to pass out toys and
food, and share the message of there is hope in Jesus!! I want to be
a part of that event, and I don't know why it's that important to me,
but it surely is!! Normally I wouldn't even be caught dead entering
into these neighborhoods that we are planning on going into. They are
the worst of the worst. Somehow,............I feel that I am needed,
because I am a product of what a difference that Jesus can make in a
life!! Keep in mind that I am not perfect. That I am still a work
in progress. Only by the grace of God can I continue on, and go forth
on to walk in the victory that we as Christians are supposed to walk
in.
I do feel that I
should be sharing my failures, along with my successes with you. I
believe that it is a good thing to see what the whole picture looks
like. As for me,.............I have a lot of trouble living a
victorious Christian life, because I am so stinkin' hard headed!! Jesus
said, “It is finished!!”
Now all I have got to do is simply receive it!!
…............Much Love
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