I am tired. I
spend too much time simply trying not to be where that I stay. I
can't even say that I live there, because I feel like I am not
wanted. If you read this blog, then you know that my assumptions were
correct. This changes the entire game for me. I am not going to
spread a virus into an already dying network. I am simply not going
to attend any more of those crazy meeting that they want us to attend
on Monday nights. They have showed me their true colors, and there is
nothing that they can say to improve my situation. My situation is
fully intact. Father has my back!! Nuff said?
I need some rest
though. I try to leave every morning but Sunday, before the sun comes
up. I don't go back in at night until all the big wigs have laid down
their weapons, and departed for the day. I was so tired Friday that I
didn't go to my ministry assignment at McDuff. I didn't get up until
8:30, and my buddy had been calling me to let me know that I didn't
have to be there today, because he was going to be late. He didn't
even know that I was still at the mission.
It is getting
really hard to stay away all the time. I spend a lot of time here in
the library. I love the library, but I guess that enough of a good
thing can grow bitter. I need to have my own place. I know that it is
coming, and I thank the Good Lord for it, but still I am getting worn
out. It will be so awesome to close my door, and be alone. I am a
loner by nature. I am very comfortable in my own skin, and can keep
myself entertained for many hours. I know that is a blessing. I see
so many that have not acquired that talent in their lives as of yet.
You know what I
love about the things that I tell you that goes on inside the walls
of my church? You can go behind me, and watch the videos. You can see
the things that I didn't tell you about. You can see, and hear the
Word being preached just as I did. However, you might can do all
this, but I doubt that you can get the full blown experience without
being there live. There is something special about being in the
presence of Father. To me I can't imagine being in any better place.
While I am writing
this I am reviewing the events of that day. I can tell you that in
person it got the full blown effect. You really can't hear the
clapping of the hands, or the shouts from the audience. The nuances,
or the noises that come from the believers, as they worship the Lord.
This is the first
time that I have taken the opportunity to see the video clip. I don't
think that they are going to show the part where Jesus revealed
Himself to us, in different ways. Maybe most people find that too
personal to have it shown in the general public. I can see where that
they might feel that way. I know that I had to be looking pretty
silly while the glory of God was shinning down on me. I think that it
really wouldn't matter though, because I am a dead man. Jesus told us
that we had to become as dead men. We could not suffer offense. He
said that offense must come, but we should not let it affect us.
I am gonna try to
place that video, or at least the live link to it, so there is no
excuse for folks not to see it. I know that everybody don't care
anything about God. There are people right now would argue that they
do care about the things of the Lord.
Can I tell you how
you can know for sure. Jesus said that we can know them by their
fruit. I have never known Jesus to lie. If He says a thing it is a
sure bet that it will come true. Some folks think that they are all
for Jesus, but they are really not. Do you want me to tell you how
that I know this for sure? It is fairly simple................I used
to be one of them!!
OK,............I
watched the whole video. It didn't show all of us receiving from the
Lord. It probably showed maybe a tenth....Maybe. You can tell by the
video that Nathan has an anointing over his life. You can tell that
by how quick that they were going down. I was there!! I saw it!!
I know what happened!! I went down also!! Plus, I am in the video!!
….........Much Love
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